First off, this is for my own therapy and if someone happens to read it, particularly if I say something that can help someone else. 
So here I am at almost 56 years old with not much more than a suitcase to my name.  I currently take 11 different medications daily.  My brain is no where near what it was only a few years ago.  My greatest regret in life is not staying in college.  That would have been a game changer for the whole scenario that has been mi vida loca.